bleghrhgh

[PITY PARTY]
there are far, far too many skinny women in london.. i am hoping it's just PMS that's causing me to feel as though all of my clothes have suddenly shrunk three sizes.. everything i put on feels so constricting and unattractive and i feel like i'm hanging out all over the place ... i have resorted to wearing this brown, longish, flow-y dress that is all gathered at the top and has sort of an empire waist.. it looks like a maternity dress but at least (1) it's cool [temperature-wise,at least] and (2) i don't have to constantly hold my stomach in or think about how tight my stupid jeans are or how fat my thighs probably look because of it. blerhghh. on top of that, i have a zit on my chin and a hangover from drinking almost an entire bottle of beaujolais in a little over an hour last night..and no motivation to go anywhere or do anything, because i'm so self conscious about how i think i must look.. ugh. i'm not usually like this.. not having any friends makes everything harder, really. go figure.
[END PITY PARTY]


TWO DAYS... i can't wait.